bye-bye 2005

Yet another year passed. 2005 gonna be an imp year in my life. Lot of events, lot of surprises, lot of lessons. Lots of ups and lots of downs. I surprised myself, reorganized myself(one of them is a major one)a lot of times, for betterment of myself and for the people around me.
For two reasons ,i will remember 2005 for ever. One is KV's marriage, the first marriage in our batch, that too after all the things he has under gone. Really an event in all our lives to whom he matters. Still remember the smile on his face immediately he tied the knot :-). It was a great trip to kothegudem, fun and educative. Educative???. ya, The mafia game, thax to jaya, is really an eye-opener for me. It just teaches you how to survive in this world by making dynamic friends and enemies. But the powerful lesson i learnt in that game is the need and the art of expressing. One needs to express himself cleverly n clearly to survive in this corporate world. 'vai ualla pillai pillaikum' is the tamil saying which reaffirms my learning. Though i am very poor in that, luckily i have big n great friends around me who are very professional in that area. They are professionals in making sarcastic, authoritative voices without hurting most of the people, so that their job is done. I am yet to imbibe those skills, hopeful of doing this by the end of 2006.:-)
The other reason is my job change. oops. what i had undergone. what are the tradeoffs, mind states, &&^^%^*(&. The Ultimate lessons at the end of entire exercise are 1. Happiness is the state of mind
2. There is nothing like great work for more that 75% of software enginners. :-)

If i ask myself how much i grew physically and mentally in this year, the answer will be a lot. Physically grew a bit wider :-) , lost some hair :-(. But mentally ? lemme see. what was i at the starting of 205 and at the end of 2005?.
1.2005 start: Always Nice to every one and help everyone. Never hurt a friend. 2005 end: IF anyone hurts you, don't hesitate to give back immediately or later. Be happy with yourself. Don't trouble yourself too much for the sake of others who don't value your actions or sacrifice. But be fair in ur dealings.

Another change is wrt my reading habit.
I always thought English novels are great. i was amazed by the works of Archer, Grisham and Crichton. When i read TimeLine i felt i was transported to 13th century, to their castles... I always wondered why no such things in Tamil. But my mom gave me a perfect answer. Then I Started reading Tamil novels. Currently i am
reading Ponniyen Selvan and i am literally living in chola dynasty. Kalki is great.

Freaky saka to moderate saka:
Earlier part of 2005 is the time i would have roamed the most till now. I didn't have a bike, yet every week end i will be in forum or MG road, thanx to jaya. Now, i have a bike, lot of friends in Bangalore , still no enthu to roam. Feeling old ?? may be!!!

Better organized:
I never knew how much i spent, how much i owe and how much i need to get back from whom. Never consistently went for jogging. But now i am much better. thax to robert and his activity management classes, i am better organized financially and in other aspects also.

What else in 2005:
Lingu's Marriage, subbu's Marriage, jaya's engagement, one of my teeth got removed :-( which made me miss the yerkadu trip, realized that i need to take care of parents and so i bought a couple of things to parents, started dealing with shares, Manoj’s arrival to Bangalore and my house shift, Bhasha’s move to my house, the rise of blog mania among my friends, Formal groupism of PV’s SPAM under platform9, visit to fashion shows and some good places, failing to get a personal loan for my friends sake, Managed to get a vehicle loan for my bike, shifted to windows from linux, Mothers health, chain mails mania , etc etc.. Ofcourse the Greatest thing for which the world will remember 2005 is the 80th birthday celebrations of SAI.

so how 2006 is going to be? Hopefully better. With all the bomb threats going around, i better insure myself :-) . 2006 will host the marriage of jaya n deepa, the must watch-out couple in Bangalore :-) . December 2006 will host the marriage of another great personality, Mr chak wedding Ms.???. And ofcourse those people
who are expected to marry in 2005 itself will get married in earlier 2006. So 2006 is gonna be YEAR OF MARRIAGES for my friends circle

bye-bye 2005 and Hi 2006. U better be nice to me ...

Ring out the old, ring in the new,
Ring, happy bells, across the snow:
The year is going, let him go;
Ring out the false, ring in the true.
- Lord Tennyson

Be yourself

Be strong enough to face the world each day.
Be weak enough to know you cannot do everything.



Be generous to those who need your help.
Be frugal with what you need yourself.



Be wise enough to know that you do not know everything.
Be foolish enough to believe in miracles.



Be willing to share your joys.
Be willing to share the sorrows of others.



Be a leader when you see a path others have missed.
Be a follower when you are shrouded in the midst of uncertainty.



Be the first to congratulate an opponent who succeeds.
Be the last to criticize a colleague who fails.



Be sure where your next step will fall, so that you will not stumble.
Be sure of your final destination, in case you are going the wrong way.



Be loving to those who love you.
Be loving to those who do not love you, and they may change.

Above all, be yourself!

--Forward Kipling.

Apaharan kidnaps you

Hold on ... this is not a review :-)
Apaharan: A good movie with solid acting after a long time. That too two of my top favorites are in. Nana and Ajay are kidnapping you with their acting. Brilliant performances. For more info :http://www.apaharan.com
I went for this movie yesterday with jaya ,kallu,manju,bhasa,deepika,thathu,and jagan. movie is good. Worth watching.

Yesterday my friend RP, wrote a post on Mothers. A post has a touchy jpg with emotional words to which he added his own sentiments. It was really a good post which trobled me for two hours . Sitting in front of my dumb system. i started thinking of how much i miss my home. I stayed in home only till 12th. After that 7 years in hostel. Immediately after that i joined the s/w janatha of bangalore.
Now i miss my mom. Especially now , as she is not doing that well on her health.
O my God. Please, please,please..........

Never take someone for granted
Hold every person close to your heart
because you might wake up one day
and realize that you've lost a diamond
while you were bust collecting stones.

ICICI Direct

I am getting pained by ICICI direct. GOD knows whose problem is this. Because my currenty financial situation is bad :-( ,I decided to sell my shares , my only investments till now. Till now I was totally cut of from market due to some crapy training. Now, sitting on my seat, as i loggin eagerly into ICIC direct, it fails miserably. The problem is very unique. As soon as i login, the initial page containing my last login info gets displayed for a brief time after which it comes to main login page asking me to login again. ^&*)(%^$ . what thehell. Sometimes it get logged in and i can see my portfolio. But when i try to sell them it gets loged out immediately ???. Best of all, after getting logged out automatically, by clicking back button on my browser , i can go back to my previous page which dispalys my portfolio and continue accessing from there. What the hell the secure connection is doin ??? I mailed the icici authorities.. Hope things will improve soon .....

Thoughts ...

Some times,.. some random incidents, however small it may be, induces a rigorous though process in you. Atleast in me and you will believe that i "over" thing about small things, once u look at me :-) . Ok the point is i decided to put the thoughts, the final, distilled ones, on my blog, without telling what is the root cause and what is the rationalee behind the final conclusion. That will do since in majority of the situations, the final thought to convince me/console me or 'whatever' me will be a well known idom or a phrase.
Ok stopping it here and tell you the 'final line' on my mind when I got up in train in chennai on saturday morning, after brooding previous night over somethings ....

no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.

Believe

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone

I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold

I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires


I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

These are not exactly what i believe. ;-)
These are lyrics of 'Affirmation' from Savage Garden.
Felt good after hearing them. so i posted it.
BTB, I too belive in most of them :-)

Change

The only thing that never changes is CHANGE itself.

That was the punch line of one of the university dramas during my post graduation.
That night i really thought about the changes that can come in my life.
I couldn't see much except for obvious ones like career and minor change in style of living.
But if really look back, i was really wrong. Hardly the time wheel has rotated,
yet a ocean of change in me. There are many parts in the life's sphere.
Some are work(not career), social, spiritual,health,personal discipline,feelings for others,
aspirations,food, balah,blah,blah. ALL HAVE CHANGED.

Am i feeling happy for the current changes in me?
..

I am back, again

Yep, I am back.
wanna scream like the backstreet guys "U can run u can hide, but u can't escape my ...." but i am controlling myself ...
Yes i am back , i am back to normal life. An ordinary software engineers life.
After a tiring training in which i ain't learn anything, after a lot of mixed happenings in my life, i am back to pour out my feelings and thoughts.
Yes, to pour out the feelings from my heart and thoughts from my mind ,
ironically which hardly match each other now a days..

ok .. what was happening all these days in my life ??

1. I finished my training in my new company and joined my team.
Not a great beginning, for i was not at best in the first few days in the company. Forget the best, i was not even normal on the first day. Total contrast compared to my previous company .Anyhow things are working out fine now ...


2. My friend's Engagement in kerala. Had a nice trip to Gods own land. Can't tell more on this ... I may out up a seperate post on this, later.


3. Bought my BIKE, atlast. Its a unicorn. My roomie and me have similar bike, similar color, similar helmet.Hope our taste similarity ends here ....
Also I learn't a valuable lesson in the whole bike buying exercise.

4. Started becoming more organised, thanks to robert and outlook. Started planning a bit. Also on the financial inflows and outflows. If not in 10s, but atlease in 100s, i can figure out where i spent !!.

5. Yesterday my friend was proudly telling me that by december 5th, he will have two lakhs in his account.Felt happy the way all our lives are taking. Just a year back, when we both shared the room, we used to plan how to economize our office travels. Also he will be travelling to US in april.

6. planning to take a insurance policy which won't take much premium , but gives good returns :-)


Thats all for now.
Definitely more to come ..

A 20$ Bill

A well known speaker started off a seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill.
In the room of 200, he asked, who would like this $20 bill?

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do
this." He proceeded to crumple the dollar bill up. He then asked, "who
still wants it! ?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

"Well," he replied, "what if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground
and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up,
now crumpled and dirty. "Now who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

"My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what
I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in
value. It was still worth $20. Many times in our lives, we are dropped,
crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the
circumstances that come our way.

Sometimes we might feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what
has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value: dirty
or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those
who love you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by
WHO WE ARE. You are special - Don't EVER forget it."

Remember that amateurs built the ark.
Professionals built the Titanic .

The Thin Line

This post is inspired by a statement from a movie.

Lemme get directly to what i intend to put.

There is a very thin line of diffenerence between Confidence and Arrogance.

A person who is confident will say "I Can Do it" while an arrogant one will say "ONLY I CAN DO IT" .

We need to be very carefull in not crossing this line ... unless one really wants to.

 

Diwali and four days

In a way, this diwali is a unique in a for me.i learnt a lot during this period(No i am not listing them here).

Firstly, this is the second diwali after getting a job. But this is the first time i had a awareness that i should give something to my parents for diwali.

So I started to plan !! wellin advance :-). I started thinking about the things i need to buy. Aroud this time i was under going a activity management workshop

in which the trainer was emphasizing on planning. Consequent of that is my use of outlook tasks...

 

I decided to buy a gluco meter for my father. Many reasons and incidents influenced me to take that decision.

I told my friends regarding this and suprisingly none said its a bad idea. Even my sil suggested that.

I started to look out for brands and the best available brand in my range was accu check.

It costs 2400. Comes with 10 strips and 10 needles. Needless to say that the strips and needles are for single use.

The usage is simple. But i would have liked it if the blood removal process is also automated. Any case it was a needy buy and i did it.

Then i bought lot of dvds , both spiritual and movies.

 

The onward journey was a pain. The morons in ksrtc filled the special buses first before booking the normal ones. I paid some 120 extra for a normal bus.

Over that the buses were not allocated. The times scheduled in tickets were like 22.45, 22.52,23.10 , 23.15 ,  23.18 , 22.22 .  but ony buses for22.45 and 23.15 were there. others were missing till 11.00 in the night ! i don't know what they did.

 

Return was fine. Got a side lower so i didn't sleep.

 

FAMILY : Diwali Gyan

A nice story ...

I ran into a stranger as he passed by, "Oh excuse me please" was my reply.

He said, "Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you."

We were very polite, this stranger and I. We went on our way and we said goodbye.

But at home it is a different story how we treat our loved ones,young and old. Later that day, cooking the evening meal, my son stood beside me very still.

When I turned, I nearly knocked him down. "Move out of the way," I said with a frown. He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken. While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said,

"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, but the family you love, you seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door.

Those are the flowers ur son brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue. He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise, you never saw the tears
that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small, and now my tears began to fall.

I quietly went and knelt by his bed; "Wake up, little one, wake up," I said.

"Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled acknoledgingly , "I found 'em, out by the tree.I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em,especially the blue."

I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way." He said, "Oh, Mom,that's okay. I love you anyway."

I said, "Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the
blue."

-----

Are we are aware that if anything happens to us tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days, but the family we leave
behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, Don't you think?



So what is behind the story? what u thing i want to tell by this story ? As i said, when we all go home for diwali, lets us keep these in mind and make our parents happy.

Do you know what the word FAMILY means?

FAMILY = (F) ATHER (A) ND (M) OTHER (I) (L) OVE (Y) OU

on leave

Oops .. I am really Busy with my training(started mid-aug). I really started hating it but i have no option. So no blogging till 20th nov :-(

Impossible isoften untried

Faith

One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...

I wanted to quit my life.I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.

 Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year

the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit." He said.
"In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.
"Then in year five a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was

seemingly small and insignificant... But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over

100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong

and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations

 a challenge it could not handle." He said to me.
"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,

you have actually been growing roots?"
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different

purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help

 you see that God will never give up on you.
He will never give up on you!
So… Have faith in God....
 

18 Rules for Life . .

Here r few rules which neeed not be broken, just because they r rules :-)


1. Pursue Achievable Goals
2. Keep a Genuine Smile
3. Share with Others
4. Help Thy Neighbors
5. Maintain a Youthful Spirit
6. Get Along with the Rich, the Poor, the Beautiful, & the Ugly
7. Keep Cool under Pressure
8. Lighten the Atmosphere with Humor
9. Forgive the Annoyance of Others
10. Have a Few Pals
11. Cooperate and Reap Greater Rewards
12. Treasure Every Moment with Your Loved Ones
13. Have High Confidence in Yourself
14. Respect the Disadvantaged
15. Indulge Yourself Occasionally
16. Surf the Net at Leisure
17. Take Calculated Risks
18. Understand "Money Isn't Everything . . ."

Quotes on Computer ....

Here are few things for musing  frm amby ....

"The use of COBOL cripples the mind; its teaching should, therefore, be regarded as a criminal offense." - Edsgar Dijkstra

"C makes it easy to shoot yourself in the foot; C++ makes it harder, but when you do, it blows away your whole leg." - Bjarne Stroustrup

"There are two ways of constructing a software design; one way is to make it so simple that there are obviously no deficiencies, and the other way is to make it so complicated that there are no obvious deficiencies. The first method is far more difficult." - CAR Hoare

"If you were plowing a field, which would you rather use? Two strong oxen or 1024 chickens?" - Seymour Cray (1925-1996), father of supercomputing

"#3 pencils and quadrille pads." - Seymoure Cray (1925-1996) when asked what CAD tools he used to design the Cray I supercomputer; he also recommended using the back side of the pages so that the grid lines were not so dominant.

"Interesting - I use a Mac to help me design the next Cray." - Seymoure Cray (1925-1996) when he was told that Apple Inc. had recently bought a Cray supercomputer to help them design the next Mac.

"The trouble with programmers is that you can never tell what a programmer is doing until it's too late." - Seymoure Cray

"UNIX is basically a simple operating system, but you have to be a genius to understand the simplicity." -- Dennis Ritchie.

and here's some thing to muse about ...

"Computers are useless. They can only give you answers."  --- Pablo Picasso.
 

Practice: Don't Preach

Here is a nice little poem forwarded by amby. Just contemplate on it :-)

I'd rather see a sermon
than hear one any day;
I'd rather one should walk with me
than merely tell the way.
The eye's a better pupil
and more willing than the ear,
Fine counsel is confusing,
but example's always clear;
And the best of all preachers
are the men who live their creeds,
For to see good put in action
is what everybody needs.
I soon can learn to do it
if you'll let me see it done;
I can watch your hands in action,
but your tongue too fast may run.
And the lecture you deliver
may be very wise and true,
But I'd rather get my lessons
by observing what you do;
For I might misunderstand you
and the high advice you give,
But there's no misunderstanding
how you act and how you live.

Flexible or Indecisive

Am I a personality of Indecisiveness or Flexibility ?.
This is the question that is eating my brain since two weeks.What am I.
Lot of happenings in this month. Lot of important decisions to be made.
Decisions involving my career and my life. Decisions affecting me and my
friends
Decisions involving my parents too. But am I happy with the decisions.
Firstof all am I taking Decisions?? or am I leaving to time to take its
own course.
Lemme attempt to find out ...
Its all started when I joined my job in Bangalore. Till then, I was a
happy-go guy living life as it is.
After joining in Blore for job , I was happy for two months. I went
around for trips,treks with my good friends and everything was totally
fine.
Then I became uncomfortable with the job. I am not exactly sure what
made me uncomfortable.
Was it that all my other friends were enjoying their life with cool jobs
and me getting fried even on weekends.
Or was it that my friend was convincing me every other night that
Regression is junk and development as good.
Or was it that my heart really wanted a cool / development job in big
company ??
Or was it that I wanted to get out of my house , making job-shift as a
reason ?
I really don't know.
But I started disliking my job for reasons which I feel silly now..
I really went weary of my current job in the initial months itself not
because job was bad but due to a lot of other unnecessary factors
Only thing , I felt them unnecessary only a bit late. But I started the
job search and after xsome ups and downs I got one in com1(say).
com1 is in new domain but has the lucratives of big banner and
comfortable job.
I definitely needed some rest and time for myself since my current job
robs both of them.
Then I informed my current company regarding my decision and sort of
declined the profile change offer
which is what exactly I initially wanted. I really didn't give time for
myself to make a decision.
I informed in current company because incase i need to join com1 , i
need to give one month notice.
When I informed my company , I wasn't sure i want to shift my job
(Irony??).
Now I want to stay in this domain itself. So I applied for Com2 which
works in this domain.
I really didn't do well in their interview. Still they are ready to
offer me.
Now Where should I go. Com1 gives good sal and a good brand. Com2 gives
good work domain.
Do I really know what I want. Will I take a decision atleast now ??

The second Indecisiveness/Flexibleness is in Househunt.
I can either stay alone in Whitefield or with a friend in Marathahalli.
I am flexible that i can stay alone or adjust with someone.
I am indecisive whether i really want to stay alone or with someone.
When I was totally unhappy with my current house (sometime last
september/october) I made an emotional
decision that I will stay alone. I took a decision because noone can
pain me when i am alone.
After a long time , after the wounds are healed, after i learnt to
survive dominators,
things were changed to the extent that the room became a happy place to
live.
Then a good friend of mine joined us in our room. Now I have an option
of sharing house in a new place.
Actually that is what exactly I wanted one year back. I wanted him to
come early so that I can move out with him.
I was even praying that he should get job very fast so that I can decide
on house shift !!!.
Now when there is an option of we sharing a house, I am confused.
The option is whether to share with him or go alone to whitefield.
Going alone looks fine when I think of peaceful life, learning a lot for
life like cooking, health, games, Gym.
I can buy things and keep collecting them.
Sharing with him is better because thats is what I really wanted.A good
roommate is definitely is a gift.
I can still in touch with jai and other friends, in touch with city, etc...
But I am confused? In a indecisive ? In other words, I want to keep my
options open. ?????
Anyhow I asked him for a time frame so that i will not waste his
plans.So a quick decision will be made shortly.

God , Please be with me .Give me options only in those things were I can
take proper decisions... :-)

Third thing is the most imp decision to take. This is for life. May be i
will put it on words some time later ...

I'm the man :-)

The awkward first phone call..

The Scene:
The Girl is a 23 year old investment banker, working in New York. The Boy is doing his residency in Boston and was given her number by his mother, who is a friend of the Girl's aunt's brother-in-law's cousin's uncle's wife in Chicago.

Time:
Monday night, 10 pm

Girl: Hello?

Boy: Shit, she's home! Umm, hi! Is this Pooja?

Girl: Speaking.

Boy: My name is Karan. I don't know if you know who I am. God, what if she doesn't know who I am? I don't even know why I'm doing this!

Girl: Oh, you live in Boston, right?

Boy: Yeah. Ok, so she was told about me, that's some relief. I wonder what she was told - "He's a resident, tall, and fair and he graduated from Ivy League school!". God, she probably hates me already!

Girl: Yeah, my mother mentioned you had my number. I can't believe he actually called!

Boy: So, how are you? Oh yeah, that's real original, but what the hell else I am supposed to say- Umm, hi, I don't know you, but do you want to be my wife?

Girl: I'm fine. And you? Ok, this is off to a great start

Boy: I'm good. Ok, think, think! So, I heard you're an investment banker? Oh, that's a real winner. Now I can be a bad conversationalist and an idiot!

Girl: Yes.

Boy: Ok, she is not helping me at all! Where do you work?

Girl: Merrill Lynch.

Boy: Hey, that's a great firm! I sound like a complete moron. I should just hang up except my mother would somehow find out and kill me!

Girl: Yeah, it's a nice place to work. God, this guy sounds like a complete loser

Boy: So... Stall, Stall!

Girl: So you're doing your residency in cardiology? Like my mom didn't tell me that 500 times already!

Boy: Ok, I can handle this... Yeah, I'm in my second year. Alright, now say something else, but what do I say? Do you drink? Cause if you want to marry me, you can't be one of those goody goody Indian girls who think that if they kiss a guy, they've practically gone all the way So, what do you like to do in your free time?

Girl: Umm... get wasted... Oh, you know, hang out with my friends, go to movies…

Boy: Where do you like to hang out in NY?

Girl: Shit, what am I supposed to say? This guy could be some religious freak! I can't say bars - I'll say clubs, you can go to clubs and not drink... Oh, sometimes we go to the movies, or there's a couple clubs that are good... That was good, I made it sound like I like clubs, but I'm not really into them...

Boy: Ok, she goes to clubs, that's a good sign. If she was really religious she wouldn't do that. Yeah? I like to dance also.

Girl: He likes to dance- that's a good sign. He can't be that stiff! So where do you hang out in Boston?

Boy: Should I say it? Alright, I'll say it, what the hell! Umm, the same, bars, clubs, stuff like that.

Girl: He said bars! So he probably drinks. Good sign. I should explore this further... Are there any good bars in Boston?

Boy: Yeah, there are some nice ones, I mean, I'm not a huge drinker, but I like having a good time. Ok, that gives the impression of someone who enjoys drinking but is not an alcoholic - pretty good, if I do say so myself

Girl: That sounds really positive. This guy sounds kind of cool. But if he's so cool why is he calling me? Shouldn't he have a girlfriend? Or not need to call random girls his mother tells him about? God, what if he's completely ugly? Yeah, me too. Although I hope my parents never find out.

Boy: Yeah. I know exactly what you mean.

Girl: Ok, so he didn't freak out at the living a double life reference- another good sign. I just wish I knew what he looked like... So...

Boy: Or she could be really fat with a huge mustache. Well, there's only one way to find out! So… I know this sounds a little crazy, but I'm visiting some friends in NYC next weekend and I wonder if you'd want to get together for coffee sometime.

Girl: Coffee. That's totally safe. If he's totally nasty I can have a quick espresso and run like hell! Yeah, that sounds great.

Boy: Alright that went pretty well. Coffee's pretty harmless. And who knows, maybe she'll be cool. Now I have to get the hell out of this conversation... So I have your e-mail, should I just e-mail you soon and we can figure it out?

Girl: E-mail is sooo much better than the phone. Thank God for e-mail! Yeah, just e-mail, I check it all the time at work, so - God, this is getting painful

Boy: Alright, I'll e-mail you soon. Meaning in two days, cause I don't want to look too desperate, but at the same time I don't want to look like I'm trying not to look too desperate

Girl: Cool. Well, I'm glad you called. I think...

Boy: Me too. Well, I'll see you soon. Please be hot, please be hot!

Girl: Alright. Bye. I can't believe he called! Too late to back out now. Besides, maybe he's cool. He didn't sound so bad on the phone.

Boy: Bye. I did it! I am the man. I think she wants me. Yeah, she definitely wants me…

Where do I fit in

The Little Square departed the world and culture of squares and was sent out into the wider world of all sorts and manner of geometric shapes and sizes.

He spent time with circles, orbs, eliptics, rectangles, and triangles, with hexagons and pentagons, and even spent time with those strange and foreign octagons that lived far, far away. As he rubbed together with them, taught them, and spent time with them showing them fascinating new insights and truths, they in turn rubbed back by sharing things with him that taught him and made him better.

He was a happy Little Square.

But by and by, the Little Square’s work was done and he returned home to his world of squares.

What he hadn't realized was that all that rubbing had rubbed off some of his nice, crisp square corners!

He discovered to his surprise, that he was no longer a very square square!

Alas, his shape had changed forever. He was a bit of a circle here, and a bit of a triangle there, and a bit of a pentagon over here. He was even octagonal in some ways!

Well, the squares in his hometown were very dismayed. The Little Square no longer fit in. He was somewhat strange and foreign—other worldly. They no longer understood the Little Square. He tried to fit back in but they shook their heads and wandered away, sick that the Little Square was so troubled and lost.

The once Little Square had returned home and found that he no longer fit into his little square hole. He had become an Oddball...not really fitting in anywhere...not completely.

So he sat down and began to cry. He felt alone, lost, of no use or value...he had no...home.

He was an Oddball, and he would always be an Oddball.

But then, he heard the Voice.

It said, "Stop crying Little Square. I wanted you to become the shape that you are now. Because you are now my shape. I made you an Oddball because I don't want you to fit into that world. You fit perfectly into my world."

"Who are you, Voice?" said Little Square.

"I made you, Little Square." replied the Voice, "And I have shaped you to become an Oddball because I have a very special job just for you."

Little Square was happy once again, and was glad that he was different - an Oddball!

So, he got up and set out to do what the Voice had called him to do...to go and help other Oddballs find their way to the Voice.

There is always a better way

Read this story somewhere . Worth duplicating on www ...


A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: “I am blind, please help.”

There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy.

That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognised his footsteps and asked, “Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?”
The man said, “I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.”

What he had written was: “Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.”

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind.

But the first sign simply told people to help by putting some money in the hat. The second sign told people that they were able to enjoy the beauty of the day, but the boy could not enjoy it because he was blind.

The first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

There are at least two lessons we can learn from this simple story.
The first is: Be thankful for what you have. Someone else has less. Help where you can.

The second is: Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently. THERE IS ALWAYS A BETTER WAY!

The Broker ....

Long back i decided to keep track of Novels, I read.In my Previous Post Read to live,not live to Read I listed the books and the motivation behind them. So adding to the list is "The Broker" by one of my favorite authors John Grisham. I like Grisham , though most of my friends are not. His style is different. A creative naration. For example The Testament is a real classic novel thought the story can be told in exact 2 lines. But its a good read.

The Broker is cool. First time , I thing Grisham ventured in to spy rackets, mosards etc. Usually it used to be Archer's or ken follet's stuff. But Grisham was really good in his plot. There is/was a Broker. A power Broker. He had his empire, built by him. As in real life it too collapsed when he left for jail. There was a security scandal on his name. Shut into jail for 20 years. Then suddenly CIA want to digout the truth. so they get a pardon and ship him off to Italy. They watch him closely to find out which of China\Russia\Isreal\Saudi will kill him first. Then the broker's instincts were back and he is back into the game.
Fairly done by Grisham. Possibility of picking up couple of Italian language and names of dishes .
One unbelievable thing (or atleast my heart didn't agree) is that the Neptune was cracked by pakistanis ;-) . But what heck ? They too have brains and belong to our subcontinent. We were same once .

ok do read Broker to spend ur valuable time ...

I am currently reading Digital Fortress

So my new list says
Michael Crichton

1. Jurassic Park
2. The Lost World
3. Congo
4. TimeLine
5. Airframe
6. The Andromeda strain
7. Disclosure
8. Sphere
9. The Terminal man
10.The Great Train robbery
11.State of Fear
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John Grisham

1. A Time to Kill
2. The Firm
3. The pelican Brief
4. The Client
5. The Partner
6. The Testament
7. The Brethren
8. The Summons
9. The Last Juror
10.The Broker
11.
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Jeffrey Archer

1. Not a penny more Not a penny less
2. Kane and Abel
3. The prodigal Daughter
4. Shall we tell the President
5. First Among Equals
6. A matter of Honour
7. Honour among Thieves
8. The Eleventh Commandement
9. Sons of fortune
10.

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Eric Segal
1. The class
2. Love Story
3. Oliver's Story
4. Doctors
5. Acts of Faith
6.


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Sidney Shelton
1. If tomorrow Comes
2. Memories of midnight
3. The Other side of the midnight
4. Tell me your Dreams
5. Master of the Game
6. Nothing Lasts for ever
7. Rage of Angels
8. Morning noon and night
9. Dooms day conspiracy
10.

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Ken Follet
1. Jackdaws
2. The Eye of the Needle
3. The Third Twin
4. Codeto Zero
5. Hornet Flight
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Dan Brown
The Da Vinci Code
Angels and Demons

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Frederick Forsyth

1. The Day of The Jackel
2. The Devils Alternative

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Robert Ludlum

1. The Bourne Identity
2. The Sigma Protocol

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James Patterson

1. Along came a spider
2.
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Others:
1. The Rule of Four : Ian Cladwell and Dustin Thomason
2. The touch of a Stranger :
3.

to be added.........

Things only women can understand !!!

Why it's good to have seven pairs of black shoes.

The difference between cream, ivory, and off-white.

Crying can be fun.

A salad, diet drink, and a hot fudge sundae make a balanced lunch.

Why discovering a designer dress on the clearance rack can be considered a peak life experience.

The inaccuracy of every bathroom scale ever made.

A good man might be hard to find, but a good hairdresser is next to impossible.

Why a phone call between two women never lasts under ten minutes.

AND THE NUMBER ONE THING ONLY WOMEN UNDERSTAND:

OTHER WOMEN!

The Intersecting Lines

This is a story of two young people, whose lives happened to cross at a point, nothing more and nothing less.

He was in the search of the meaning of his life; as any other human being, in his early twenties. He had the talent, hailed by the society,
but he himself wasn't confident of accepting it. He yearned for more,more of what he did not know. He asked questions such as he himself
could never answer. He did not know where the life would take him, and for that matter, did not even care. Sometimes, he found himself trapped
in the web that he himself had woven, inadvertently. The people around him noticed, praised and talked of him. And he quietly enjoyed the talk,
always wondering all this is for /who/?

She was a youthful bud. Free as in Freedom. Swift as a cloud on a windy day. Fluent were her thoughts as the turbulent blue waters of a stream
in the forest. Bright was she as the sunshine on a day in March. And how beautiful!

It wouldn't be odd if they met one fine day. But until and unless that actually happened, sentences such as those would be meaningless. What
would such two people find in common? Appreciation for one another! Strange are never the ways of fate, that they happened to meet one day.
Out of the blue. And later, they laughed over the matter of their first meeting, for they couldn't make out /why/ they had to meet.

Some things do not have any explanation. And some things do not need one.

The life continued its own course. Changing a bit here and there for the conveniences of these two. They spoke of many things. Of ideals, of
socialism, of books and of songs. Of rainbows, of fireflies, of sand-dunes, of stars they spoke. If it ever came to his mind, he never
spoke of the puzzle that was consuming very much of his processing power. And she never thought so much about it anyway. The time was
spinning its wheel, and perhaps his mind was being freed by her. She, life's perfect admirer, could appreciate and accelerate the talents he
had so far kept buried within himself (for no reason whatsoever). And he was aware of that. He, on the other hand could simply be amazed by the
reach of her mind, the depth of her thoughts, the heights of her imaginations. He knew he had found the meaning, finally.

There were long dialogues exchanged, funny things debated and laughed at heartily. The others around them continued to enjoy what these two were
offering them : joy! The weathers changed, the moon continued with its 15-day tours, the clouds came at the times expected and the rains poured
sooner. The flowers never missed the blooming season. Everything about everything was just too perfect. Including these two.

One may be forced to think that perhaps, then, these two were made for each other. But that's a different story. That may happen in some other
story, but not in this one. And that is not the point of the story after all.

The greatest adventure that life is, it miraculously brings out so uncountably many straight lines, some parallel, some intersecting, some
short, some ever lengthening. And a few merge and become one after a certain point. Many meaningless lines never intersect, not that they are
parallel but such a crossing never happens. And then there is no definition of parting for such lines too.

The geometry of life is not so straightforward.

The merry weather continued all the same. The stars shone on them and the moon cleared any darkness that was left in him. Time continued. Joys
overflowed. Breeze hummed, and trees swayed. And after such a wonderful length of time, the two lines departed. For no reason, as there was no
reason for there meeting. Without any emotion that can be described as sadness. Without shedding any drop of tear, without bidding any
goodbyes. Without any promises of meeting again. Perhaps, life simply and cruelly turned its attention to another such pair of unrelated lines.

It is probably not so important how these two lines fared later, but what is important is the point they left on each other's paths. A line
may be made up of infinite points, but not all of them can be so privileged as those of the intersection. Intersection, such as this.

Indeed, the geometry of life is not so straightforward. But then it is not pointless as well!

Content is Important, not the container

A group of working adults got together to visit their University lecturer. The lecturer was happy to see them. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. The Lecturer just smiled and went to the kitchen to get an assortment of cups - some porcelain, some in plastic, some in glass, some plain looking and some looked rather expensive and exquisite.

The Lecturer offered his former students the cups to get drinks for themselves. When all the students had a cup in hand with water, the Lecturer spoke: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal that you only want the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all you wanted was water, not the cup, but we unconsciously went for the better cups."

"Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold/maintain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change." "If we only concentrate on the cup, we won't have time to enjoy/taste the water in it."

Go-carting

On Sunday, Sri, Subbi,KV and me went for Go-Carting in R.T Nagar. We got
up lazilly and donno what to do. So we decided to go as it was near to
sri's house. The exact place is RTNagar Patel's inn. Its a small track
and the carts were just enough to call it a decent one. But the helmets
were stinky. Its better to take ur bike helmets or u may not ride with a
Feel Good Factor. Also the carts were quite stiff and worn out. But
still we managed to enjoy there. With our sri dashing everyone and
innocent subbi trailling badly , we enjoyed all the 12 laps.But the
lesson i learnt was that there is already a Generation gap between us
and the pre-teens. So don't cart first time if there is a preteen in ur
batch.
Details
Location: Patel's INN RT Nagar (near BDA Complex)
Cost:
for single seater: 100 for 7 laps(Mon to Thu)
100 for 6 laps(Fri to Sun)
for Twin seater: 150 for 7 laps(Mon to Thu)
150 for 6 laps(Fri to Sun)
Advice:
1. Take ur own helmet if u have one.
2. Make sure no pre-teens damage u in case thats ur first carting

Sunday(s) with ChakDaddy

This sunday the main agenda for me was the meeting with chak daddy. Chak was my classmate in Bsc and MSc after which he did his MS from IIT Chennai (Something on cryptography). He joined Novell Net last week. So all our friends in blore decided to meet up in forum on sunday 4.00pm sharp.
I was in jayas' house in kormangala on saturday itself , so that i will be in forum on time. I am not sure of the reason for the anxiety in me though chak was just a classmate. May be because he was always different from all of us.He was a very dedicated, studious, talented and a really good guy. So i was curious how he will be in Bangalore !!!. Finally after a lot of events which includes a small friendly fight between jaya & kallu and Bhoom movie, we landed in forum at 4.30. Chak was on time and asusual we were late. later, jrk and kv, lingu and partha joined us. But we want to talk, and forum is like a posh city market on sundays(In city market u mind people dashing u , but here u won't). So we decided to go to some coffee day. Jrk and me were hungry (both sacrificed our lunch for this meeting !). We grabbed some puffs and corner house icecreams and eventually landed in jaya's house at 5.30 . Then our chatting and pulling session started. As usual pv targetted kallu and he was our first bakra. But slowly it was shifting and came to PV's gUy funda. Thats it. For once pv was in receiving end. Evey topic and every joke concluded on Pv and the gUy. But he took it cooly(apparently) . Then we all went to nandhini and had a good veg dinner(thax to chak).. Then me, pv and babai reached our house at 11.30 in auto. that was the end of my weekend.

This weekend , the predominant thoughts in my mind were
1. where to buy a house in blore incasei need to ?
2. what sort of girl i will like , my wife to be?
3. Should i join SAP incase i get an offer.
4. Why partha was unusually silent through out the meeting?

Tejas Networks .............

Today is the inauguration of our new facility and state of the art art optical labs in JP nagar. The chief guest was Dayanidhi Maran and Infosys Narayana Murthy. It was supposed to start at 4.00 pm. At 12.00 pm i had my final round of HR interview from SAP(telephonic). It went well and sriram said i did reasonably well. So i was as usual excited. Then the time to go for function came. I was seriously contemplating on bunking it and goinbg for dinner alone. some how my consious priked for attending the function. But the only motivating thing is Narayana murthy. Maran is also my favorite, being young, intelligent, educated, good minister. After much discussion with sri, maddy and jenny, I sat in jenny's bike and went. The function went well. Maran made a real good, short sweet speech. And narayana murthy made some inspirational stuff. One thing is sure. If Tejas manages well, It really has a good future. Management is the key. I really don't want to leave. But i am not happy either. SO i better leave for the good of tejas ! and betterment of mine.

sunday@PVR

I was really happy this weekend. On friday i had in interview at SAP. Though went well , i am not positive about getting into it. But i met sundu after a lng time and spoke to him for long. After getting surprised by his personal stories , i dropped him home and reached home late in the night. manoj got naina cd so we (subbi n bobby also joined us) watched it late in the night. Saturday we lazily got up at 11. After a good work of arranging my cupboard (thanx to manoj and pv) we went to lunch at bheemas. Nice andra stye NV. then back home and watched some movie. later jai joined us in room and went out to dinner with him, just to pour out my problems to him. Then back to movie mode , DDLJ in set max an went till 2.30. Result was , we were 15 min late to the 10.00 movie at PVR. Mr n Mrs smith is an entertainer. It was good. Then after lunch we watched antharivadu, a mass movie for andralities. . Evening after bidding bye-byes to jai & kallu , we were about to start, jai called me to tell that his bike was missing. So we went to traffic police station who had pulled all the parked bikes in NO-Parking zone to station. Paid a fine of 300 and got the bike back. back to home by 9. So entire weekend i saw only movies and a complete sunday in PVR. The surprising part in PVR is meeting some parthi people like, raghu sir, ravi, seshu etc...

Love n marriage

Look into my eyes
you will see, what you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find me there, you'll search no more



These are the opening lines of a famous Bryan Adams Song. I really don’t know how much he meant it. How many people are very sure what exactly they want from their soul mate. Or rather, Can anyone define the characteristics that will make someone their soul mate? A friend of mine said, it’s just a feeling u get when u see her. I somehow couldn’t agree with him.
I have two cases of my friends to analyze it for myself. First is a classmate, with whom I stayed for 3 years in close quarters. I know him very well to maintain distance. Quite short tempered, enthu, and career-oriented guy who leave nothing spared in getting what he wanted. We hardly have anything in common other that the birth month. Such a guy, after falling in love, changed considerably. He underwent a lot and made some sacrifices and finally got married. His marriage was quite a relief to most of us. But there is some lesson, which I am missing. For, this full exercise looks absurd to me.
Another Guy is a best friend of mine whom I least expected to fall for a girl. But his was a different case. I knew when he used to run behind her during college days, but it was just a flirting instinct. Later she came back to his life and more due to circumstances he was forced to propose to her. Yet things didn’t work out since their parents and horoscope didn’t agree, so both parted as friends.

So what is the concept of finding and getting the soulmate. Is there only one soulmate. Or there many and u choose the best according to ur wish and time? If the second friend thought his girl as soulmate why did he leave her? If he thought otherwise, why did he propose? I really don’t know. But I am trying to find the answer to these questions. If I need to look for a girl, do I need to choose the first one who meets some minimal criteria out of all my criteria or do I need to wait to find the best one. This question was eating me for a week. Today while typing my feeling on this blog, I got this forward. Its definitely not my feelings nor an answer to my question, but since it is appropriate to mine doubts I am posting it here …

Soul mate . .

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student. One day they
were lying down under a big tree on a grassy plain. Then, suddenly,
the student asked the teacher, Teacher, I'm confused, how can I find
my soul-mate..? Can you please help me..?

Teacher : Silent for few seconds, then he answered, well; it's a pretty
hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look that way, there's a lot of grass there, why don't you walk
there, but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead.
On your way, try to find a beautiful blade of grass and pick it up,
then give it to me. But just ONE blade of grass!
Student : Well, ok then.. wait for me.. walked straight ahead on the grass field.


A few minutes later..

Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Erm, well I don't see any beautiful blade of grass in your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found a few beautiful blades of grass, but each
time I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up.
But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked
up any. 'Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happens in real life..


What is the message of this story..?
In looking for your soul mate, please don't always compare and Hope that there
will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, 'coz remember
Time Never Goes Back".

It applies similarly in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable, career or business
opportunity..

Therefore the morale is :
LOVE & GRAB HOLD of the opportunity that you have. Don't waste time now - Go & get it now . . .


As I said, I am not totally convinced of the above. But I am forcing myself to believe it. I feel it will be a compromising life in either case. So I can sing

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me

Getting Lost

Its Really a long time since i took off. Its really long time since i did something other than office work. Really bad..... ;-)

CrossRoads

How many times in our lives we were in a situation , forced in making a decision.I always likes to keep my options open. whether in college for groups, or organising something or even in a trip for sightseeing. Other may feel my indecisiveness on their nerves but atleast i will be clear of my options and will keep life going. Similar attitude i carried at tejas. Somehow i didn't like the job (a lot of reason to that, least blammable is the job itself). but still stuck to tejas, comforting myself of domain knowledge i will get , growth in small company all those self affirming stuffs.Then when reality of retarded growth stuck me after a year, i started looking out options i was always thinking. i always thought of an option of doing an MBA thru CAT in any of the IIMs and to climb the ladder. Now i am in a fix. Preparing for CAT means involing myself deeply into it, full concentration on preparation which mean sticking to Tejas till CAT. But the risk with it also worried me. But what other option i have that can give me a equivaluable return, also needs to be looked.SO i was having CAT / or shifting to other "GOOD" job as options. Now i am in a fix. Its time to take a decision . i can't travel in both roads as Time for preparing for CAT is less. Otherwise i should lookout for a good job immediately. what to do ????. SOme how these lines always bother me

And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful
than the risk it took to blossom.

WishList

The Greatest regrets in our life
are the risks we didnot take
If you think something will make you happy
Go for it..
Remember that we pass this way only once

we pass this way only once.....................


Yes, I will pass this way only once. So lemme travel it fully and completely. I don't want to miss anything in my wishlist to be untouched. Its marktwain who said "You will be more Disappointed by the thing that you didn't do than by the ones you did do". So Lemme Go ahead and do what I want to do. All i need to take care is none is hurt by my act.For instance my roomie pvss wanted by learn guitar. He talked about it, laughed about it but ultimately he bought a guitar. Whether he will learn or not is a different question. But the satisfaction of trying out, playing it and the feeling of doing something which he wished to do can match nothing.Do what u want to do. Don't hesitate unless its gonna hurt someone.
When i look Back, i had missed out a lot of things in life. School day pranks are understandable and forgivable,but i didn't do many of them since i don't know that they are forgivable at that time. Then in college, i missed out a lot of things. I never gave Public Apology, Never was in kitchen during Gramsevaand a lot more. Why that much. I was planning to Scream on roads immediately after getting a job.But i didn't. Its not because i don't want to do at that time. Its because i forgot it at that time. I always forgot my wishes at the moments.SO I have decided. I gonna make a WishList. I gonna write down all my wishes , however small they may be. It may be as silly as "wanting to eat roadside fried groundnut and walking in rain after a days work" or as major as "playing a prank on jaya when he is with his date". It can be anything. But , gonna make a list and make sure to do then at the right time. My first entry is "Wish all the Wishes in this wishlist is fulfilled"

Explore, Dream,Discover

Bye C U.......................

Hope

Neither should a boat
rely on a small anchor,
Nor should life
rest on a single Hope.

its true. How a man can survive with a single hope. How can anyone decide something/someone as the only necesscity for their survival. Its rubbish. its foolish ness. why one should shatter if they didn't get what the aspired for? . But how it can be realised. How can we take failures and proceed forward with minimal setback. The key is in "Hope". Hope. Hope for a better job, Hope for a better salary, for a better lifestyle, for a better person , even for a better result. But don't fix ur Hope. When the Hope is fixed and aimed only for that ,then we are deeply disappointed if we end up getting something less. But of we also had a hope of constant improvement , then we will have a positive attitude to ain for it next time. Remember , its all in the mind, sucess or failure. Not everytime i like to sing these lines ............

Sometimes I wish I could
turn back time
Impossible as it may seems
But I wish I could ... So bad ...............

Music of Life

Life is Not a Race. Take it Slower
Hear the Music before the song is Over

Truth is difficult to digest. If the above quote is true then i am right. Are we happy at any point in time with what we have. Do we really enjoy doing something without thinking of future. REALLY enjoying ? . If you are , then u r lucky. But i was never. School time it was about freaking in college. College is about getting a job and bashing. Now about getting out of Rat race. But where it will end. Did i excell myself at any point of time. Did i patted myself ts any point of time. The answer for these questions is NO. But at times i was happy with my performances. But all time i contributed my sucess to swami. Whether it was my 12th Result or every sem results in college or while getting a job, every thing after the thing was materialized, my feeling would be "its all HIS grace and i don't deserve it".

ok Now gettting back to the point. I have decided. I want to enjoy what iam doing. I am going to accept what i am . It doesn't mean i will not try to excell, stop looking for a better opportunity etc...
It only means i will be happy in my current place , make myself more organized and try not to miss to enjoy the music of life.
There are many events in life that comes once . Ur first day in school. ur first day in college, first date,first love, ur farewell day, days between out of college and getting a job, first marriage in ur friends cicle. ur Best friends wefdiing etc... All these days some of them i missed due to the future at stake mania. Now i have decided not ot miss them at any cost.

OK its time for work Bye...................

Read to live,not live to Read

"Master Books,but donot let them master you.- Read to live,not live to Read".

"The good of a book lies in its being read. A book is made up of signs that speak of other signs, which in their turn speak of things. Without an eye to read them, a book contains signs that produce no concepts; therefore it is dumb." -Umberto Eco.


Looking Back, I realize that, Reading Novels had been my favourite and the only past time. I can even tell that its my only hobby but i hesitate to do that whenever i recollect the phrase "There is a slim difference between Hobby and mental illness".

Whatever it is, now i want to list down allthe novels i have read till now.This Crazy idea crept into my mind while i was trying to update the "Books I Like" link in my 360'. Suddenly i realized that there are too many favorites. Too many favorite books, too many favorite authors, all varying from time to time. Some consistently scored in my heart, Some made me something out of me by the time i finished them. Its a complex graph. Some are consistent and some attain pinnacle with a single book (depends on which of his u read first). for instance, Michael Crichton is my all time favorite. i read all most all of his except for Eaters of dead and Rising sun. Books like Jurassic park, Lost worls, Time line were read and reread a lot. I learnt chaos theory and quantum theory from his books more clearly. Still Godfather is my fastest read (twice non-stop).But still not all Puzo's are of my liking. Ofcourse there are book which played with my emotions. Who doesn't luv Erich Segal , the creator of eternals like The Class,Doctors, LoveStory. These books really left some impressions in my heart and made me something in life. Yes, i am realizing it now. I was getting to grow and getting matured along with books. Far away from home, with absolutely no expose to my community through my siblings or relatives, i grew with these books. First it was alister machlein , and other pulpfictions. Then came SS ,Ken follet, and others. Then came the people like John Grisham, M Crichton who fed my mind and people like E segal who fed my heart. Then there are other books like those self help, positive attitude building books which had contributed in its own way.


ok enough of my thoughts.lemme put my idea into action. so these are the books i have read till now. Surely i forgot most of them , but i will keep appending them as i recollect and with the new ones as i read them. Here i Go...


Michael Crichton

1. Jurassic Park
2. The Lost World
3. Congo
4. TimeLine
5. Airframe
6. The Andromeda strain
7. Disclosure
8. Sphere
9. The Terminal man
10.The Great Train robbery
11.State of Fear
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John Grisham

1. A Time to Kill
2. The Firm
3. The pelican Brief
4. The Client
5. The Partner
6. The Testament
7. The Brethren
8. The Summons
9. The Last Juror
10.



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Jeffrey Archer

1. Not a penny more Not a penny less
2. Kane and Abel
3. The prodigal Daughter
4. Shall we tell the President
5. First Among Equals
6. A matter of Honour
7. Honour among Thieves
8. The Eleventh Commandement
9. Sons of fortune
10.

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Eric Segal
1. The class
2. Love Story
3. Oliver's Story
4. Doctors
5. Acts of Faith
6.


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Sidney Shelton
1. If tomorrow Comes
2. Memories of midnight
3. The Other side of the midnight
4. Tell me your Dreams
5. Master of the Game
6. Nothing Lasts for ever
7. Rage of Angels
8. Morning noon and night
9. Dooms day conspiracy
10.

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Ken Follet
1. Jackdaws
2. The Eye of the Needle
3. The Third Twin
4. Codeto Zero
5. Hornet Flight
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Frederick Forsyth

1. The Day of The Jackel
2. The Devils Alternative

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Robert Ludlum

1. The Bourne Identity
2. The Sigma Protocol

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James Patterson

1. Along came a spider
2.
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Others:
1. The Rule of Four : Ian Cladwell and Dustin Thomason
2. The touch of a Stranger :
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to be added.........

Me and Hangover

Its a beautiful Monday morning and i am still to be Clear. Here i am in office, Struggling in front of my dumb termial. Today i feel more dumb than my Dumb terminal. Last nights' effect. Samjakaroyaar. Last night udais' treat for his IIM-A was supposed to be in some hotel in MG Road. But me and hemant were trying to convience him for Latitude standing in symphony theatre.Initially udai was refusing, cribbing "no Dharu yaar?" , that yaar, this yaar, But eventually he agreed. So we seven went for latitude. Though this was not the first time, but with a big group , the effect was definitely different. Gals were cute and beer was running. Suddenly ashi wants to do some hellaluya. tried to convince him that here it will be costlier. But at the end some three bottles had gone inside my empty stomach. But i was proud that i was steady, drived back home. But the effect was seen this morning. O my God , feels like someone is walking inside my head. just now udai was also crying about that.Its OK. A New Experience. If anybody speaks of hangover , i know how it feels. But i don't want to in this anymore.
A lot of work to do. LCAS Test Case, PRs on office side and MBA info on personal side. Lemme see what can be done.....

Expense Report

Have you ever thought spending with your friends is bad. Had ever felt bad after spending on your friends for an event.

I never felt till yesterday. As the April approached, my term in my company gets on to one year. Excitedly,i opened my bank account to find Rs10.75. Shocked , i checked my investements , only to be disappointed. More fuel to the fire was when my room mates revealed that they have nearly a lakh as savings, in one form or other. i was frustrated with myself not only because of null investements but also inability to track my expenditures. That makes me a fool. But my mantra"learn from debacles" motivated me.I decided to track my expenditures. I started listing my assests and liabilities. I want to maintian a cash flow diagram and a monthly savings in something (preferably in funds). i decided. Now lemme see how i can do it.

Me and Medical Camp

This week I suprised Myself. This is the first weekend of this month and i thought atleast this time i will go for the Service camp. Otherwise again i need to lie to sarath on monday morning. But unluckily this weekend, my home saw many visitors. And as usual after the deadly Cricket match when me and jai proposed for dinner out (in honor of scopy and kris), pv had his own plans and was cribbing about going far for dinner.He is not coming for camp (since he is out of tejas now) , so he wants to prove i will just say , but i won't go for camp..(*88w9q7re9qwer89we7rwr8=wqer8=w9r But eventually we went and had dinner and i personnaly had a feel good factor (as expected kv didn't come). Now the question was how will i go for camp. As kuda willed it, ck told about abbis car. So next day,I was in car to whitefield for medical camp. I volunteered myself in pharmacy (data entry sucks). Did a satisfying work. Somehow these things gets u back to ground reality.
I decided to go to camp every month, lemme see how much i can do...

Here I Go....

Again i shifted my Blog.... My Blogs expiry in Blog Harbour is nearing , so i am forced to lookout for a new space to expressess myself. But again, the world is really big enough that you will never run out of options , in anything, as long as you have IT inside you.

More to come......................