Faith

One day I decided to quit... I quit my job, my relationship, my spirituality...

I wanted to quit my life.I went to the woods to have one last talk with God.
"God", I said. "Can you give me one good reason not to quit?" His answer surprised me...
"Look around", He said. "Do you see the fern and the bamboo?"
"Yes", I replied.
"When I planted the fern and the bamboo seeds, I took very good care of them.

I gave them light. I gave them water. The fern quickly grew from the earth. Its brilliant green covered the floor.

 Yet nothing came from the bamboo seed. But I did not quit on the bamboo. In the second year

the Fern grew more vibrant and plentiful. And again, nothing came from the bamboo seed.

But I did not quit on the bamboo." He said.
"In year three there was still nothing from the bamboo seed. But I would not quit." He said.
"In year four, again, there was nothing from the bamboo seed. I would not quit." He said.
"Then in year five a tiny sprout emerged from the earth. Compared to the fern it was

seemingly small and insignificant... But just 6 months later the bamboo rose to over

100 feet tall. It had spent the five years growing roots. Those roots made it strong

and gave it what it needed to survive. I would not give any of my creations

 a challenge it could not handle." He said to me.
"Did you know, my child, that all this time you have been struggling,

you have actually been growing roots?"
"I would not quit on the bamboo. I will never quit on you."
"Don't compare yourself to others." He said. "The bamboo had a different

purpose than the fern. Yet they both make the forest beautiful."
"Your time will come", God said to me. "You will rise high"
"How high should I rise?" I asked.
"How high will the bamboo rise?" He asked in return.
"As high as it can?" I questioned
"Yes." He said, "Give me glory by rising as high as you can."
I left the forest and bring back this story. I hope these words can help

 you see that God will never give up on you.
He will never give up on you!
So… Have faith in God....
 

18 Rules for Life . .

Here r few rules which neeed not be broken, just because they r rules :-)


1. Pursue Achievable Goals
2. Keep a Genuine Smile
3. Share with Others
4. Help Thy Neighbors
5. Maintain a Youthful Spirit
6. Get Along with the Rich, the Poor, the Beautiful, & the Ugly
7. Keep Cool under Pressure
8. Lighten the Atmosphere with Humor
9. Forgive the Annoyance of Others
10. Have a Few Pals
11. Cooperate and Reap Greater Rewards
12. Treasure Every Moment with Your Loved Ones
13. Have High Confidence in Yourself
14. Respect the Disadvantaged
15. Indulge Yourself Occasionally
16. Surf the Net at Leisure
17. Take Calculated Risks
18. Understand "Money Isn't Everything . . ."

Quotes on Computer ....

Here are few things for musing  frm amby ....

"The use of COBOL cripples the mind; its teaching should, therefore, be regarded as a criminal offense." - Edsgar Dijkstra

"C makes it easy to shoot yourself in the foot; C++ makes it harder, but when you do, it blows away your whole leg." - Bjarne Stroustrup

"There are two ways of constructing a software design; one way is to make it so simple that there are obviously no deficiencies, and the other way is to make it so complicated that there are no obvious deficiencies. The first method is far more difficult." - CAR Hoare

"If you were plowing a field, which would you rather use? Two strong oxen or 1024 chickens?" - Seymour Cray (1925-1996), father of supercomputing

"#3 pencils and quadrille pads." - Seymoure Cray (1925-1996) when asked what CAD tools he used to design the Cray I supercomputer; he also recommended using the back side of the pages so that the grid lines were not so dominant.

"Interesting - I use a Mac to help me design the next Cray." - Seymoure Cray (1925-1996) when he was told that Apple Inc. had recently bought a Cray supercomputer to help them design the next Mac.

"The trouble with programmers is that you can never tell what a programmer is doing until it's too late." - Seymoure Cray

"UNIX is basically a simple operating system, but you have to be a genius to understand the simplicity." -- Dennis Ritchie.

and here's some thing to muse about ...

"Computers are useless. They can only give you answers."  --- Pablo Picasso.
 

Practice: Don't Preach

Here is a nice little poem forwarded by amby. Just contemplate on it :-)

I'd rather see a sermon
than hear one any day;
I'd rather one should walk with me
than merely tell the way.
The eye's a better pupil
and more willing than the ear,
Fine counsel is confusing,
but example's always clear;
And the best of all preachers
are the men who live their creeds,
For to see good put in action
is what everybody needs.
I soon can learn to do it
if you'll let me see it done;
I can watch your hands in action,
but your tongue too fast may run.
And the lecture you deliver
may be very wise and true,
But I'd rather get my lessons
by observing what you do;
For I might misunderstand you
and the high advice you give,
But there's no misunderstanding
how you act and how you live.

Flexible or Indecisive

Am I a personality of Indecisiveness or Flexibility ?.
This is the question that is eating my brain since two weeks.What am I.
Lot of happenings in this month. Lot of important decisions to be made.
Decisions involving my career and my life. Decisions affecting me and my
friends
Decisions involving my parents too. But am I happy with the decisions.
Firstof all am I taking Decisions?? or am I leaving to time to take its
own course.
Lemme attempt to find out ...
Its all started when I joined my job in Bangalore. Till then, I was a
happy-go guy living life as it is.
After joining in Blore for job , I was happy for two months. I went
around for trips,treks with my good friends and everything was totally
fine.
Then I became uncomfortable with the job. I am not exactly sure what
made me uncomfortable.
Was it that all my other friends were enjoying their life with cool jobs
and me getting fried even on weekends.
Or was it that my friend was convincing me every other night that
Regression is junk and development as good.
Or was it that my heart really wanted a cool / development job in big
company ??
Or was it that I wanted to get out of my house , making job-shift as a
reason ?
I really don't know.
But I started disliking my job for reasons which I feel silly now..
I really went weary of my current job in the initial months itself not
because job was bad but due to a lot of other unnecessary factors
Only thing , I felt them unnecessary only a bit late. But I started the
job search and after xsome ups and downs I got one in com1(say).
com1 is in new domain but has the lucratives of big banner and
comfortable job.
I definitely needed some rest and time for myself since my current job
robs both of them.
Then I informed my current company regarding my decision and sort of
declined the profile change offer
which is what exactly I initially wanted. I really didn't give time for
myself to make a decision.
I informed in current company because incase i need to join com1 , i
need to give one month notice.
When I informed my company , I wasn't sure i want to shift my job
(Irony??).
Now I want to stay in this domain itself. So I applied for Com2 which
works in this domain.
I really didn't do well in their interview. Still they are ready to
offer me.
Now Where should I go. Com1 gives good sal and a good brand. Com2 gives
good work domain.
Do I really know what I want. Will I take a decision atleast now ??

The second Indecisiveness/Flexibleness is in Househunt.
I can either stay alone in Whitefield or with a friend in Marathahalli.
I am flexible that i can stay alone or adjust with someone.
I am indecisive whether i really want to stay alone or with someone.
When I was totally unhappy with my current house (sometime last
september/october) I made an emotional
decision that I will stay alone. I took a decision because noone can
pain me when i am alone.
After a long time , after the wounds are healed, after i learnt to
survive dominators,
things were changed to the extent that the room became a happy place to
live.
Then a good friend of mine joined us in our room. Now I have an option
of sharing house in a new place.
Actually that is what exactly I wanted one year back. I wanted him to
come early so that I can move out with him.
I was even praying that he should get job very fast so that I can decide
on house shift !!!.
Now when there is an option of we sharing a house, I am confused.
The option is whether to share with him or go alone to whitefield.
Going alone looks fine when I think of peaceful life, learning a lot for
life like cooking, health, games, Gym.
I can buy things and keep collecting them.
Sharing with him is better because thats is what I really wanted.A good
roommate is definitely is a gift.
I can still in touch with jai and other friends, in touch with city, etc...
But I am confused? In a indecisive ? In other words, I want to keep my
options open. ?????
Anyhow I asked him for a time frame so that i will not waste his
plans.So a quick decision will be made shortly.

God , Please be with me .Give me options only in those things were I can
take proper decisions... :-)

Third thing is the most imp decision to take. This is for life. May be i
will put it on words some time later ...

I'm the man :-)

The awkward first phone call..

The Scene:
The Girl is a 23 year old investment banker, working in New York. The Boy is doing his residency in Boston and was given her number by his mother, who is a friend of the Girl's aunt's brother-in-law's cousin's uncle's wife in Chicago.

Time:
Monday night, 10 pm

Girl: Hello?

Boy: Shit, she's home! Umm, hi! Is this Pooja?

Girl: Speaking.

Boy: My name is Karan. I don't know if you know who I am. God, what if she doesn't know who I am? I don't even know why I'm doing this!

Girl: Oh, you live in Boston, right?

Boy: Yeah. Ok, so she was told about me, that's some relief. I wonder what she was told - "He's a resident, tall, and fair and he graduated from Ivy League school!". God, she probably hates me already!

Girl: Yeah, my mother mentioned you had my number. I can't believe he actually called!

Boy: So, how are you? Oh yeah, that's real original, but what the hell else I am supposed to say- Umm, hi, I don't know you, but do you want to be my wife?

Girl: I'm fine. And you? Ok, this is off to a great start

Boy: I'm good. Ok, think, think! So, I heard you're an investment banker? Oh, that's a real winner. Now I can be a bad conversationalist and an idiot!

Girl: Yes.

Boy: Ok, she is not helping me at all! Where do you work?

Girl: Merrill Lynch.

Boy: Hey, that's a great firm! I sound like a complete moron. I should just hang up except my mother would somehow find out and kill me!

Girl: Yeah, it's a nice place to work. God, this guy sounds like a complete loser

Boy: So... Stall, Stall!

Girl: So you're doing your residency in cardiology? Like my mom didn't tell me that 500 times already!

Boy: Ok, I can handle this... Yeah, I'm in my second year. Alright, now say something else, but what do I say? Do you drink? Cause if you want to marry me, you can't be one of those goody goody Indian girls who think that if they kiss a guy, they've practically gone all the way So, what do you like to do in your free time?

Girl: Umm... get wasted... Oh, you know, hang out with my friends, go to movies…

Boy: Where do you like to hang out in NY?

Girl: Shit, what am I supposed to say? This guy could be some religious freak! I can't say bars - I'll say clubs, you can go to clubs and not drink... Oh, sometimes we go to the movies, or there's a couple clubs that are good... That was good, I made it sound like I like clubs, but I'm not really into them...

Boy: Ok, she goes to clubs, that's a good sign. If she was really religious she wouldn't do that. Yeah? I like to dance also.

Girl: He likes to dance- that's a good sign. He can't be that stiff! So where do you hang out in Boston?

Boy: Should I say it? Alright, I'll say it, what the hell! Umm, the same, bars, clubs, stuff like that.

Girl: He said bars! So he probably drinks. Good sign. I should explore this further... Are there any good bars in Boston?

Boy: Yeah, there are some nice ones, I mean, I'm not a huge drinker, but I like having a good time. Ok, that gives the impression of someone who enjoys drinking but is not an alcoholic - pretty good, if I do say so myself

Girl: That sounds really positive. This guy sounds kind of cool. But if he's so cool why is he calling me? Shouldn't he have a girlfriend? Or not need to call random girls his mother tells him about? God, what if he's completely ugly? Yeah, me too. Although I hope my parents never find out.

Boy: Yeah. I know exactly what you mean.

Girl: Ok, so he didn't freak out at the living a double life reference- another good sign. I just wish I knew what he looked like... So...

Boy: Or she could be really fat with a huge mustache. Well, there's only one way to find out! So… I know this sounds a little crazy, but I'm visiting some friends in NYC next weekend and I wonder if you'd want to get together for coffee sometime.

Girl: Coffee. That's totally safe. If he's totally nasty I can have a quick espresso and run like hell! Yeah, that sounds great.

Boy: Alright that went pretty well. Coffee's pretty harmless. And who knows, maybe she'll be cool. Now I have to get the hell out of this conversation... So I have your e-mail, should I just e-mail you soon and we can figure it out?

Girl: E-mail is sooo much better than the phone. Thank God for e-mail! Yeah, just e-mail, I check it all the time at work, so - God, this is getting painful

Boy: Alright, I'll e-mail you soon. Meaning in two days, cause I don't want to look too desperate, but at the same time I don't want to look like I'm trying not to look too desperate

Girl: Cool. Well, I'm glad you called. I think...

Boy: Me too. Well, I'll see you soon. Please be hot, please be hot!

Girl: Alright. Bye. I can't believe he called! Too late to back out now. Besides, maybe he's cool. He didn't sound so bad on the phone.

Boy: Bye. I did it! I am the man. I think she wants me. Yeah, she definitely wants me…

Where do I fit in

The Little Square departed the world and culture of squares and was sent out into the wider world of all sorts and manner of geometric shapes and sizes.

He spent time with circles, orbs, eliptics, rectangles, and triangles, with hexagons and pentagons, and even spent time with those strange and foreign octagons that lived far, far away. As he rubbed together with them, taught them, and spent time with them showing them fascinating new insights and truths, they in turn rubbed back by sharing things with him that taught him and made him better.

He was a happy Little Square.

But by and by, the Little Square’s work was done and he returned home to his world of squares.

What he hadn't realized was that all that rubbing had rubbed off some of his nice, crisp square corners!

He discovered to his surprise, that he was no longer a very square square!

Alas, his shape had changed forever. He was a bit of a circle here, and a bit of a triangle there, and a bit of a pentagon over here. He was even octagonal in some ways!

Well, the squares in his hometown were very dismayed. The Little Square no longer fit in. He was somewhat strange and foreign—other worldly. They no longer understood the Little Square. He tried to fit back in but they shook their heads and wandered away, sick that the Little Square was so troubled and lost.

The once Little Square had returned home and found that he no longer fit into his little square hole. He had become an Oddball...not really fitting in anywhere...not completely.

So he sat down and began to cry. He felt alone, lost, of no use or value...he had no...home.

He was an Oddball, and he would always be an Oddball.

But then, he heard the Voice.

It said, "Stop crying Little Square. I wanted you to become the shape that you are now. Because you are now my shape. I made you an Oddball because I don't want you to fit into that world. You fit perfectly into my world."

"Who are you, Voice?" said Little Square.

"I made you, Little Square." replied the Voice, "And I have shaped you to become an Oddball because I have a very special job just for you."

Little Square was happy once again, and was glad that he was different - an Oddball!

So, he got up and set out to do what the Voice had called him to do...to go and help other Oddballs find their way to the Voice.

There is always a better way

Read this story somewhere . Worth duplicating on www ...


A blind boy sat on the steps of a building with a hat by his feet. He held up a sign which said: “I am blind, please help.”

There were only a few coins in the hat.

A man was walking by. He took a few coins from his pocket and dropped them into the hat. He then took the sign, turned it around, and wrote some words. He put the sign back so that everyone who walked by would see the new words.

Soon the hat began to fill up. A lot more people were giving money to the blind boy.

That afternoon the man who had changed the sign came to see how things were. The boy recognised his footsteps and asked, “Were you the one who changed my sign this morning? What did you write?”
The man said, “I only wrote the truth. I said what you said but in a different way.”

What he had written was: “Today is a beautiful day and I cannot see it.”

Do you think the first sign and the second sign were saying the same thing?

Of course both signs told people the boy was blind.

But the first sign simply told people to help by putting some money in the hat. The second sign told people that they were able to enjoy the beauty of the day, but the boy could not enjoy it because he was blind.

The first sign simply said the boy was blind. The second sign told people they were so lucky that they were not blind. Should we be surprised that the second sign was more effective?

There are at least two lessons we can learn from this simple story.
The first is: Be thankful for what you have. Someone else has less. Help where you can.

The second is: Be creative. Be innovative. Think differently. THERE IS ALWAYS A BETTER WAY!

The Broker ....

Long back i decided to keep track of Novels, I read.In my Previous Post Read to live,not live to Read I listed the books and the motivation behind them. So adding to the list is "The Broker" by one of my favorite authors John Grisham. I like Grisham , though most of my friends are not. His style is different. A creative naration. For example The Testament is a real classic novel thought the story can be told in exact 2 lines. But its a good read.

The Broker is cool. First time , I thing Grisham ventured in to spy rackets, mosards etc. Usually it used to be Archer's or ken follet's stuff. But Grisham was really good in his plot. There is/was a Broker. A power Broker. He had his empire, built by him. As in real life it too collapsed when he left for jail. There was a security scandal on his name. Shut into jail for 20 years. Then suddenly CIA want to digout the truth. so they get a pardon and ship him off to Italy. They watch him closely to find out which of China\Russia\Isreal\Saudi will kill him first. Then the broker's instincts were back and he is back into the game.
Fairly done by Grisham. Possibility of picking up couple of Italian language and names of dishes .
One unbelievable thing (or atleast my heart didn't agree) is that the Neptune was cracked by pakistanis ;-) . But what heck ? They too have brains and belong to our subcontinent. We were same once .

ok do read Broker to spend ur valuable time ...

I am currently reading Digital Fortress

So my new list says
Michael Crichton

1. Jurassic Park
2. The Lost World
3. Congo
4. TimeLine
5. Airframe
6. The Andromeda strain
7. Disclosure
8. Sphere
9. The Terminal man
10.The Great Train robbery
11.State of Fear
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John Grisham

1. A Time to Kill
2. The Firm
3. The pelican Brief
4. The Client
5. The Partner
6. The Testament
7. The Brethren
8. The Summons
9. The Last Juror
10.The Broker
11.
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Jeffrey Archer

1. Not a penny more Not a penny less
2. Kane and Abel
3. The prodigal Daughter
4. Shall we tell the President
5. First Among Equals
6. A matter of Honour
7. Honour among Thieves
8. The Eleventh Commandement
9. Sons of fortune
10.

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Eric Segal
1. The class
2. Love Story
3. Oliver's Story
4. Doctors
5. Acts of Faith
6.


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Sidney Shelton
1. If tomorrow Comes
2. Memories of midnight
3. The Other side of the midnight
4. Tell me your Dreams
5. Master of the Game
6. Nothing Lasts for ever
7. Rage of Angels
8. Morning noon and night
9. Dooms day conspiracy
10.

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Ken Follet
1. Jackdaws
2. The Eye of the Needle
3. The Third Twin
4. Codeto Zero
5. Hornet Flight
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Dan Brown
The Da Vinci Code
Angels and Demons

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Frederick Forsyth

1. The Day of The Jackel
2. The Devils Alternative

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Robert Ludlum

1. The Bourne Identity
2. The Sigma Protocol

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James Patterson

1. Along came a spider
2.
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Others:
1. The Rule of Four : Ian Cladwell and Dustin Thomason
2. The touch of a Stranger :
3.

to be added.........

Things only women can understand !!!

Why it's good to have seven pairs of black shoes.

The difference between cream, ivory, and off-white.

Crying can be fun.

A salad, diet drink, and a hot fudge sundae make a balanced lunch.

Why discovering a designer dress on the clearance rack can be considered a peak life experience.

The inaccuracy of every bathroom scale ever made.

A good man might be hard to find, but a good hairdresser is next to impossible.

Why a phone call between two women never lasts under ten minutes.

AND THE NUMBER ONE THING ONLY WOMEN UNDERSTAND:

OTHER WOMEN!

The Intersecting Lines

This is a story of two young people, whose lives happened to cross at a point, nothing more and nothing less.

He was in the search of the meaning of his life; as any other human being, in his early twenties. He had the talent, hailed by the society,
but he himself wasn't confident of accepting it. He yearned for more,more of what he did not know. He asked questions such as he himself
could never answer. He did not know where the life would take him, and for that matter, did not even care. Sometimes, he found himself trapped
in the web that he himself had woven, inadvertently. The people around him noticed, praised and talked of him. And he quietly enjoyed the talk,
always wondering all this is for /who/?

She was a youthful bud. Free as in Freedom. Swift as a cloud on a windy day. Fluent were her thoughts as the turbulent blue waters of a stream
in the forest. Bright was she as the sunshine on a day in March. And how beautiful!

It wouldn't be odd if they met one fine day. But until and unless that actually happened, sentences such as those would be meaningless. What
would such two people find in common? Appreciation for one another! Strange are never the ways of fate, that they happened to meet one day.
Out of the blue. And later, they laughed over the matter of their first meeting, for they couldn't make out /why/ they had to meet.

Some things do not have any explanation. And some things do not need one.

The life continued its own course. Changing a bit here and there for the conveniences of these two. They spoke of many things. Of ideals, of
socialism, of books and of songs. Of rainbows, of fireflies, of sand-dunes, of stars they spoke. If it ever came to his mind, he never
spoke of the puzzle that was consuming very much of his processing power. And she never thought so much about it anyway. The time was
spinning its wheel, and perhaps his mind was being freed by her. She, life's perfect admirer, could appreciate and accelerate the talents he
had so far kept buried within himself (for no reason whatsoever). And he was aware of that. He, on the other hand could simply be amazed by the
reach of her mind, the depth of her thoughts, the heights of her imaginations. He knew he had found the meaning, finally.

There were long dialogues exchanged, funny things debated and laughed at heartily. The others around them continued to enjoy what these two were
offering them : joy! The weathers changed, the moon continued with its 15-day tours, the clouds came at the times expected and the rains poured
sooner. The flowers never missed the blooming season. Everything about everything was just too perfect. Including these two.

One may be forced to think that perhaps, then, these two were made for each other. But that's a different story. That may happen in some other
story, but not in this one. And that is not the point of the story after all.

The greatest adventure that life is, it miraculously brings out so uncountably many straight lines, some parallel, some intersecting, some
short, some ever lengthening. And a few merge and become one after a certain point. Many meaningless lines never intersect, not that they are
parallel but such a crossing never happens. And then there is no definition of parting for such lines too.

The geometry of life is not so straightforward.

The merry weather continued all the same. The stars shone on them and the moon cleared any darkness that was left in him. Time continued. Joys
overflowed. Breeze hummed, and trees swayed. And after such a wonderful length of time, the two lines departed. For no reason, as there was no
reason for there meeting. Without any emotion that can be described as sadness. Without shedding any drop of tear, without bidding any
goodbyes. Without any promises of meeting again. Perhaps, life simply and cruelly turned its attention to another such pair of unrelated lines.

It is probably not so important how these two lines fared later, but what is important is the point they left on each other's paths. A line
may be made up of infinite points, but not all of them can be so privileged as those of the intersection. Intersection, such as this.

Indeed, the geometry of life is not so straightforward. But then it is not pointless as well!

Content is Important, not the container

A group of working adults got together to visit their University lecturer. The lecturer was happy to see them. Conversation soon turned into complaints about stress in work and life. The Lecturer just smiled and went to the kitchen to get an assortment of cups - some porcelain, some in plastic, some in glass, some plain looking and some looked rather expensive and exquisite.

The Lecturer offered his former students the cups to get drinks for themselves. When all the students had a cup in hand with water, the Lecturer spoke: "If you noticed, all the nice looking, expensive cups were taken up, leaving behind the plain and cheap ones. While it is normal that you only want the best for yourselves, that is the source of your problems and stress. What all you wanted was water, not the cup, but we unconsciously went for the better cups."

"Just like in life, if Life is Water, then the jobs, money and position in society are the cups. They are just tools to hold/maintain Life, but the quality of Life doesn't change." "If we only concentrate on the cup, we won't have time to enjoy/taste the water in it."

Go-carting

On Sunday, Sri, Subbi,KV and me went for Go-Carting in R.T Nagar. We got
up lazilly and donno what to do. So we decided to go as it was near to
sri's house. The exact place is RTNagar Patel's inn. Its a small track
and the carts were just enough to call it a decent one. But the helmets
were stinky. Its better to take ur bike helmets or u may not ride with a
Feel Good Factor. Also the carts were quite stiff and worn out. But
still we managed to enjoy there. With our sri dashing everyone and
innocent subbi trailling badly , we enjoyed all the 12 laps.But the
lesson i learnt was that there is already a Generation gap between us
and the pre-teens. So don't cart first time if there is a preteen in ur
batch.
Details
Location: Patel's INN RT Nagar (near BDA Complex)
Cost:
for single seater: 100 for 7 laps(Mon to Thu)
100 for 6 laps(Fri to Sun)
for Twin seater: 150 for 7 laps(Mon to Thu)
150 for 6 laps(Fri to Sun)
Advice:
1. Take ur own helmet if u have one.
2. Make sure no pre-teens damage u in case thats ur first carting

Sunday(s) with ChakDaddy

This sunday the main agenda for me was the meeting with chak daddy. Chak was my classmate in Bsc and MSc after which he did his MS from IIT Chennai (Something on cryptography). He joined Novell Net last week. So all our friends in blore decided to meet up in forum on sunday 4.00pm sharp.
I was in jayas' house in kormangala on saturday itself , so that i will be in forum on time. I am not sure of the reason for the anxiety in me though chak was just a classmate. May be because he was always different from all of us.He was a very dedicated, studious, talented and a really good guy. So i was curious how he will be in Bangalore !!!. Finally after a lot of events which includes a small friendly fight between jaya & kallu and Bhoom movie, we landed in forum at 4.30. Chak was on time and asusual we were late. later, jrk and kv, lingu and partha joined us. But we want to talk, and forum is like a posh city market on sundays(In city market u mind people dashing u , but here u won't). So we decided to go to some coffee day. Jrk and me were hungry (both sacrificed our lunch for this meeting !). We grabbed some puffs and corner house icecreams and eventually landed in jaya's house at 5.30 . Then our chatting and pulling session started. As usual pv targetted kallu and he was our first bakra. But slowly it was shifting and came to PV's gUy funda. Thats it. For once pv was in receiving end. Evey topic and every joke concluded on Pv and the gUy. But he took it cooly(apparently) . Then we all went to nandhini and had a good veg dinner(thax to chak).. Then me, pv and babai reached our house at 11.30 in auto. that was the end of my weekend.

This weekend , the predominant thoughts in my mind were
1. where to buy a house in blore incasei need to ?
2. what sort of girl i will like , my wife to be?
3. Should i join SAP incase i get an offer.
4. Why partha was unusually silent through out the meeting?

Tejas Networks .............

Today is the inauguration of our new facility and state of the art art optical labs in JP nagar. The chief guest was Dayanidhi Maran and Infosys Narayana Murthy. It was supposed to start at 4.00 pm. At 12.00 pm i had my final round of HR interview from SAP(telephonic). It went well and sriram said i did reasonably well. So i was as usual excited. Then the time to go for function came. I was seriously contemplating on bunking it and goinbg for dinner alone. some how my consious priked for attending the function. But the only motivating thing is Narayana murthy. Maran is also my favorite, being young, intelligent, educated, good minister. After much discussion with sri, maddy and jenny, I sat in jenny's bike and went. The function went well. Maran made a real good, short sweet speech. And narayana murthy made some inspirational stuff. One thing is sure. If Tejas manages well, It really has a good future. Management is the key. I really don't want to leave. But i am not happy either. SO i better leave for the good of tejas ! and betterment of mine.

sunday@PVR

I was really happy this weekend. On friday i had in interview at SAP. Though went well , i am not positive about getting into it. But i met sundu after a lng time and spoke to him for long. After getting surprised by his personal stories , i dropped him home and reached home late in the night. manoj got naina cd so we (subbi n bobby also joined us) watched it late in the night. Saturday we lazily got up at 11. After a good work of arranging my cupboard (thanx to manoj and pv) we went to lunch at bheemas. Nice andra stye NV. then back home and watched some movie. later jai joined us in room and went out to dinner with him, just to pour out my problems to him. Then back to movie mode , DDLJ in set max an went till 2.30. Result was , we were 15 min late to the 10.00 movie at PVR. Mr n Mrs smith is an entertainer. It was good. Then after lunch we watched antharivadu, a mass movie for andralities. . Evening after bidding bye-byes to jai & kallu , we were about to start, jai called me to tell that his bike was missing. So we went to traffic police station who had pulled all the parked bikes in NO-Parking zone to station. Paid a fine of 300 and got the bike back. back to home by 9. So entire weekend i saw only movies and a complete sunday in PVR. The surprising part in PVR is meeting some parthi people like, raghu sir, ravi, seshu etc...

Love n marriage

Look into my eyes
you will see, what you mean to me
Search your heart, search your soul
And when you find me there, you'll search no more



These are the opening lines of a famous Bryan Adams Song. I really don’t know how much he meant it. How many people are very sure what exactly they want from their soul mate. Or rather, Can anyone define the characteristics that will make someone their soul mate? A friend of mine said, it’s just a feeling u get when u see her. I somehow couldn’t agree with him.
I have two cases of my friends to analyze it for myself. First is a classmate, with whom I stayed for 3 years in close quarters. I know him very well to maintain distance. Quite short tempered, enthu, and career-oriented guy who leave nothing spared in getting what he wanted. We hardly have anything in common other that the birth month. Such a guy, after falling in love, changed considerably. He underwent a lot and made some sacrifices and finally got married. His marriage was quite a relief to most of us. But there is some lesson, which I am missing. For, this full exercise looks absurd to me.
Another Guy is a best friend of mine whom I least expected to fall for a girl. But his was a different case. I knew when he used to run behind her during college days, but it was just a flirting instinct. Later she came back to his life and more due to circumstances he was forced to propose to her. Yet things didn’t work out since their parents and horoscope didn’t agree, so both parted as friends.

So what is the concept of finding and getting the soulmate. Is there only one soulmate. Or there many and u choose the best according to ur wish and time? If the second friend thought his girl as soulmate why did he leave her? If he thought otherwise, why did he propose? I really don’t know. But I am trying to find the answer to these questions. If I need to look for a girl, do I need to choose the first one who meets some minimal criteria out of all my criteria or do I need to wait to find the best one. This question was eating me for a week. Today while typing my feeling on this blog, I got this forward. Its definitely not my feelings nor an answer to my question, but since it is appropriate to mine doubts I am posting it here …

Soul mate . .

Once upon a time, there was a teacher and his student. One day they
were lying down under a big tree on a grassy plain. Then, suddenly,
the student asked the teacher, Teacher, I'm confused, how can I find
my soul-mate..? Can you please help me..?

Teacher : Silent for few seconds, then he answered, well; it's a pretty
hard and easy question.
Student : (Thinking hard) Huh???
Teacher : Look that way, there's a lot of grass there, why don't you walk
there, but please never walk backward, just walk straight ahead.
On your way, try to find a beautiful blade of grass and pick it up,
then give it to me. But just ONE blade of grass!
Student : Well, ok then.. wait for me.. walked straight ahead on the grass field.


A few minutes later..

Student : I'm back.
Teacher : Erm, well I don't see any beautiful blade of grass in your hand.
Student : On my journey, I found a few beautiful blades of grass, but each
time I thought that I would find a better one, so I didn't pick it up.
But I didn't realize that I'm at the end of the field, and I hadn't picked
up any. 'Cause you told me not to go back, so I didn't go back.
Teacher : That's what happens in real life..


What is the message of this story..?
In looking for your soul mate, please don't always compare and Hope that there
will be a better one. By doing that, you'll waste your lifetime, 'coz remember
Time Never Goes Back".

It applies similarly in finding your ideal life partner, your suitable, career or business
opportunity..

Therefore the morale is :
LOVE & GRAB HOLD of the opportunity that you have. Don't waste time now - Go & get it now . . .


As I said, I am not totally convinced of the above. But I am forcing myself to believe it. I feel it will be a compromising life in either case. So I can sing

I don't care who you are
Where you're from
What you did
As long as you love me

Getting Lost

Its Really a long time since i took off. Its really long time since i did something other than office work. Really bad..... ;-)

CrossRoads

How many times in our lives we were in a situation , forced in making a decision.I always likes to keep my options open. whether in college for groups, or organising something or even in a trip for sightseeing. Other may feel my indecisiveness on their nerves but atleast i will be clear of my options and will keep life going. Similar attitude i carried at tejas. Somehow i didn't like the job (a lot of reason to that, least blammable is the job itself). but still stuck to tejas, comforting myself of domain knowledge i will get , growth in small company all those self affirming stuffs.Then when reality of retarded growth stuck me after a year, i started looking out options i was always thinking. i always thought of an option of doing an MBA thru CAT in any of the IIMs and to climb the ladder. Now i am in a fix. Preparing for CAT means involing myself deeply into it, full concentration on preparation which mean sticking to Tejas till CAT. But the risk with it also worried me. But what other option i have that can give me a equivaluable return, also needs to be looked.SO i was having CAT / or shifting to other "GOOD" job as options. Now i am in a fix. Its time to take a decision . i can't travel in both roads as Time for preparing for CAT is less. Otherwise i should lookout for a good job immediately. what to do ????. SOme how these lines always bother me

And the day came when the risk it took to remain tight inside the bud was more painful
than the risk it took to blossom.

WishList

The Greatest regrets in our life
are the risks we didnot take
If you think something will make you happy
Go for it..
Remember that we pass this way only once

we pass this way only once.....................


Yes, I will pass this way only once. So lemme travel it fully and completely. I don't want to miss anything in my wishlist to be untouched. Its marktwain who said "You will be more Disappointed by the thing that you didn't do than by the ones you did do". So Lemme Go ahead and do what I want to do. All i need to take care is none is hurt by my act.For instance my roomie pvss wanted by learn guitar. He talked about it, laughed about it but ultimately he bought a guitar. Whether he will learn or not is a different question. But the satisfaction of trying out, playing it and the feeling of doing something which he wished to do can match nothing.Do what u want to do. Don't hesitate unless its gonna hurt someone.
When i look Back, i had missed out a lot of things in life. School day pranks are understandable and forgivable,but i didn't do many of them since i don't know that they are forgivable at that time. Then in college, i missed out a lot of things. I never gave Public Apology, Never was in kitchen during Gramsevaand a lot more. Why that much. I was planning to Scream on roads immediately after getting a job.But i didn't. Its not because i don't want to do at that time. Its because i forgot it at that time. I always forgot my wishes at the moments.SO I have decided. I gonna make a WishList. I gonna write down all my wishes , however small they may be. It may be as silly as "wanting to eat roadside fried groundnut and walking in rain after a days work" or as major as "playing a prank on jaya when he is with his date". It can be anything. But , gonna make a list and make sure to do then at the right time. My first entry is "Wish all the Wishes in this wishlist is fulfilled"

Explore, Dream,Discover

Bye C U.......................