bye-bye 2005

Yet another year passed. 2005 gonna be an imp year in my life. Lot of events, lot of surprises, lot of lessons. Lots of ups and lots of downs. I surprised myself, reorganized myself(one of them is a major one)a lot of times, for betterment of myself and for the people around me.
For two reasons ,i will remember 2005 for ever. One is KV's marriage, the first marriage in our batch, that too after all the things he has under gone. Really an event in all our lives to whom he matters. Still remember the smile on his face immediately he tied the knot :-). It was a great trip to kothegudem, fun and educative. Educative???. ya, The mafia game, thax to jaya, is really an eye-opener for me. It just teaches you how to survive in this world by making dynamic friends and enemies. But the powerful lesson i learnt in that game is the need and the art of expressing. One needs to express himself cleverly n clearly to survive in this corporate world. 'vai ualla pillai pillaikum' is the tamil saying which reaffirms my learning. Though i am very poor in that, luckily i have big n great friends around me who are very professional in that area. They are professionals in making sarcastic, authoritative voices without hurting most of the people, so that their job is done. I am yet to imbibe those skills, hopeful of doing this by the end of 2006.:-)
The other reason is my job change. oops. what i had undergone. what are the tradeoffs, mind states, &&^^%^*(&. The Ultimate lessons at the end of entire exercise are 1. Happiness is the state of mind
2. There is nothing like great work for more that 75% of software enginners. :-)

If i ask myself how much i grew physically and mentally in this year, the answer will be a lot. Physically grew a bit wider :-) , lost some hair :-(. But mentally ? lemme see. what was i at the starting of 205 and at the end of 2005?.
1.2005 start: Always Nice to every one and help everyone. Never hurt a friend. 2005 end: IF anyone hurts you, don't hesitate to give back immediately or later. Be happy with yourself. Don't trouble yourself too much for the sake of others who don't value your actions or sacrifice. But be fair in ur dealings.

Another change is wrt my reading habit.
I always thought English novels are great. i was amazed by the works of Archer, Grisham and Crichton. When i read TimeLine i felt i was transported to 13th century, to their castles... I always wondered why no such things in Tamil. But my mom gave me a perfect answer. Then I Started reading Tamil novels. Currently i am
reading Ponniyen Selvan and i am literally living in chola dynasty. Kalki is great.

Freaky saka to moderate saka:
Earlier part of 2005 is the time i would have roamed the most till now. I didn't have a bike, yet every week end i will be in forum or MG road, thanx to jaya. Now, i have a bike, lot of friends in Bangalore , still no enthu to roam. Feeling old ?? may be!!!

Better organized:
I never knew how much i spent, how much i owe and how much i need to get back from whom. Never consistently went for jogging. But now i am much better. thax to robert and his activity management classes, i am better organized financially and in other aspects also.

What else in 2005:
Lingu's Marriage, subbu's Marriage, jaya's engagement, one of my teeth got removed :-( which made me miss the yerkadu trip, realized that i need to take care of parents and so i bought a couple of things to parents, started dealing with shares, Manoj’s arrival to Bangalore and my house shift, Bhasha’s move to my house, the rise of blog mania among my friends, Formal groupism of PV’s SPAM under platform9, visit to fashion shows and some good places, failing to get a personal loan for my friends sake, Managed to get a vehicle loan for my bike, shifted to windows from linux, Mothers health, chain mails mania , etc etc.. Ofcourse the Greatest thing for which the world will remember 2005 is the 80th birthday celebrations of SAI.

so how 2006 is going to be? Hopefully better. With all the bomb threats going around, i better insure myself :-) . 2006 will host the marriage of jaya n deepa, the must watch-out couple in Bangalore :-) . December 2006 will host the marriage of another great personality, Mr chak wedding Ms.???. And ofcourse those people
who are expected to marry in 2005 itself will get married in earlier 2006. So 2006 is gonna be YEAR OF MARRIAGES for my friends circle

bye-bye 2005 and Hi 2006. U better be nice to me ...

Ring out the old, ring in the new,
Ring, happy bells, across the snow:
The year is going, let him go;
Ring out the false, ring in the true.
- Lord Tennyson

Be yourself

Be strong enough to face the world each day.
Be weak enough to know you cannot do everything.



Be generous to those who need your help.
Be frugal with what you need yourself.



Be wise enough to know that you do not know everything.
Be foolish enough to believe in miracles.



Be willing to share your joys.
Be willing to share the sorrows of others.



Be a leader when you see a path others have missed.
Be a follower when you are shrouded in the midst of uncertainty.



Be the first to congratulate an opponent who succeeds.
Be the last to criticize a colleague who fails.



Be sure where your next step will fall, so that you will not stumble.
Be sure of your final destination, in case you are going the wrong way.



Be loving to those who love you.
Be loving to those who do not love you, and they may change.

Above all, be yourself!

--Forward Kipling.

Apaharan kidnaps you

Hold on ... this is not a review :-)
Apaharan: A good movie with solid acting after a long time. That too two of my top favorites are in. Nana and Ajay are kidnapping you with their acting. Brilliant performances. For more info :http://www.apaharan.com
I went for this movie yesterday with jaya ,kallu,manju,bhasa,deepika,thathu,and jagan. movie is good. Worth watching.

Yesterday my friend RP, wrote a post on Mothers. A post has a touchy jpg with emotional words to which he added his own sentiments. It was really a good post which trobled me for two hours . Sitting in front of my dumb system. i started thinking of how much i miss my home. I stayed in home only till 12th. After that 7 years in hostel. Immediately after that i joined the s/w janatha of bangalore.
Now i miss my mom. Especially now , as she is not doing that well on her health.
O my God. Please, please,please..........

Never take someone for granted
Hold every person close to your heart
because you might wake up one day
and realize that you've lost a diamond
while you were bust collecting stones.

ICICI Direct

I am getting pained by ICICI direct. GOD knows whose problem is this. Because my currenty financial situation is bad :-( ,I decided to sell my shares , my only investments till now. Till now I was totally cut of from market due to some crapy training. Now, sitting on my seat, as i loggin eagerly into ICIC direct, it fails miserably. The problem is very unique. As soon as i login, the initial page containing my last login info gets displayed for a brief time after which it comes to main login page asking me to login again. ^&*)(%^$ . what thehell. Sometimes it get logged in and i can see my portfolio. But when i try to sell them it gets loged out immediately ???. Best of all, after getting logged out automatically, by clicking back button on my browser , i can go back to my previous page which dispalys my portfolio and continue accessing from there. What the hell the secure connection is doin ??? I mailed the icici authorities.. Hope things will improve soon .....

Thoughts ...

Some times,.. some random incidents, however small it may be, induces a rigorous though process in you. Atleast in me and you will believe that i "over" thing about small things, once u look at me :-) . Ok the point is i decided to put the thoughts, the final, distilled ones, on my blog, without telling what is the root cause and what is the rationalee behind the final conclusion. That will do since in majority of the situations, the final thought to convince me/console me or 'whatever' me will be a well known idom or a phrase.
Ok stopping it here and tell you the 'final line' on my mind when I got up in train in chennai on saturday morning, after brooding previous night over somethings ....

no matter how good a friend someone is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that.